Saturday, December 17, 2005

Well The Visit Is Over….

I had very mixed emotions last night as I had to say goodbye. It’s tough for me to have to leave with her still in the hospital. My Mom has always been a strong woman, spiritually, emotionally and physically… “good Irish stock” as she’d say.

Having to leave now, with her still so vulnerable simply goes against my grain. I don’t have much choice though. I’ve got to get back to the job, they’ve been understanding but the list of “todo’s” has been piling up all week, despite my efforts from the hotel room each night. There are just some things that work much better when I’m on-site, than when I’m not. Regardless, I still found myself overwhelmed with emotion, and fighting back tears as we said goodbye.

I know I should just be happy she’s doing so well, and that I was able to be here with her during this, but, I can’t help wishing I could just stay until she goes home. I know a return trip is in the cards for the near future.

This event has also re-doubled my resolve to build a client base I can service from anywhere in the world that has broadband access. I may not know ‘how’ I’m going to do that yet, but I definitely have the ‘what’ down pat!

As I’m closing this up, I want you all to know that I don’t discount anything. Prayers, thoughts, well wishes… I’m of the belief they’re all ‘heard’… and I know Mom would feel the same way. I’ve always admired the peace she found in her faith, you can literally see it in her face when she’s in church, or receiving a blessing from the priest in the hospital.

We’re about to hit the highway so I need to wrap this up. As I do, all of you are on my mind. I hope this finds you all well and thinking about your family. I may not always get along, or agree with, my family. I am however always thankful for them, especially at times like this as, for the most part, they put aside everything else and rally around the one in need.

Thanks again for your support, encouragement, thoughts, prayers and well wishes!!!

9 comments:

Nina said...

I understand how hard it is to leave. It isn't easy, but your mom has a wonderful son who loves her and you can bet she knows it from the bottom of her heart.
Prayers and blessings!

Dizzy Ms. Lizzy said...

Bill,

It is very hard to leave in a situation like this. But you and your Mom have your love to keep you closely connected. That's a very strong bond!

Have a safe trip home.

Liz

Chloe said...

I'll pray that you and your family find all the strength you need to come through this more closely bonded, happier, and (most importantly) healthier.

Bill said...

Nanina - You know, it's always been hard to say goodbye, even when her health was 100%... in fact we talked about that this morning... and chuckled about it actually.

Liz - We had a very uneventful drive home, always a good thing!

Chloe - Thanks, we're a pretty tightly bonded family, when we need to be, and I guess that's all that really matters!

To everyone, this has been a pretty emotional week for us all, and each of you has made it all just a little bit easier.

Maryan said that although saying goodbye was tough, knowing we'll be able to say hello again is what really matters!

Jada's Gigi said...

Glad to hear your mom is recovering.

Robin K said...

Bill,

Although I do not know you, your Mom has been in my thoughts and prayers. I know how difficult it can be when a loved one, especially a parent is ill.
My mother went through a very similar illness, but unlike your Mom it was too late for my Mom and 3 yrs ago nearly to this day I was attending her funeral. It was a very tough time for me but the love and support I received from everyone, even those from the internet that I had never met, meant so much to me.
I am thrilled to see that your Mom is continuing to improve and I do hope that the return visit you make is one of happier times.

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers,

Robin

Bill said...

Gigi Thanks... it was a roller coaster of a week for sure!

Robin - Thanks, I'm glad you stopped in and thankful for your thoughts and prayers!

I'm sorry to hear about your Mom, I know how hard my Dad's passing was on me.

Comfort Addict said...

I can definitely identify with the desire to stay. I'm with you on the telecommuting (it makes handling life's personal events easier).

Bill said...

CA - I'm looking forward to the day where I can earn a living without concern for a physical location (except of course for broadband access)... I think we should start a national "Friends don't let friends drive to work" campaign! :)

Have a very Merry Christmas my friend.